On Blogging.

Hello all-
I wanted to take a minute to talk about my life. But Lauren, isn't that what you do in ALL of your posts? Perhaps, but this one is a little more serious. Nothing sad, nothing cheesy, I just want to open up a little bit more. Blogging has become such a big part of my life, so I feel like its only right.

Maybe its the new year, the new hair color, my sudden obsession with my major, or the fact that my family is picking up and moving to a different state in a few short months- regardless, I have been doing a lot of reflecting. Stepping back, noticing the parts that I love and enjoy, and realizing that aspects that may be toxic, stress-correlated, or all around negative. My findings during this thought process have made me feel two overall, slightly contradicting ways. One: I feel so immensely thankful for the life that I have been given, for the people that I've come to know, and for the trials that I've been so fortunate to overcome thus far. On the other hand, I'm realizing that there are some things that should change- that need to change- in order for me to be my best self. By focusing in on some glaring problems that needed a little TLC, I was able to push my pride was out of the picture. So, after dropping a dreadful spanish class and making a few other eye-opening decisions in my personal life, I now look to my blog for further tweaking.

First and foremost: I love blogging. One of Five has become my outlet, my creative channel, my way of inspiration. But there are some days where I wake up with this notion that all of my posts are dull and running together, and so I begin to find myself tempted to fall into the big, black hole of a cycle that is the Internet, in hopes of discovering a boost of "originality" that so many of us bloggers hide with the word, inspiration. Any one else know what I'm talking about? It can be completely acceptable sometimes, as I love reading the latest how-to's and do-it-yourself's just as much as the next person. So much in fact, that up until now, I've somehow convinced myself into thinking that although I don't own a sewing machine, or in fact have never sewn anything in my life, I can make that clutch from scratch. So what's next? I put the directions in a pretty little post. This of course is just an example, but you get my point. I want to get back to writing about what I know. Writing about what I like. I think I've strayed from that, and have instead posted more on what I *think* you guys want me to post about. And for the record, I hate sewing. I've tried. But I never cut my string long enough so I run out before I'm finished, and I always, and I mean always, poke/seriously injure my fingers.

So again, I only want to make a few little tweaks here and there, so an outsider might not even notice many changes on this little blog of mine, if any at all. But for my avid readers, you may notice a few changes in my style. To avoid that dull feeling I described above, to make my blog more "me," I'm going to hone in on what I like and know. My hope is that through all of this, things around here will become a little more genuine and real, that the girl behind One of Five will become less of a faceless blogger over the Internet, and more of a nineteen year old real-life college girl who's just trying to make her way like everyone else. And I'd love for you to stick around to see how it goes. :)