a walk downtown and a big decision.

On Friday night, Sara and I went to bed with fingers crossed that the weather would be nice to us the following morning. After waking up without the alarms (a luxury I haven't felt in ages), we rubbed our eyes and peeked out our window onto a perfect 43 degree-warmed town. Yes.

We invited the other Sarah, and the three of us went downtown for the afternoon. The above pictures were taken on the walk there before we actually left campus. I've been here for almost two years and have yet to notice the shoe trees until now. The pictures don't even do it justice-- there had to have been at least 35 pairs swinging above our heads. 

The walk was beautiful. There wasn't a cloud in the sky, and there's just really nothing like walking in sync with your best friends down the streets Fredericksburg. We made our usual stop at Hyperion Espresso, the cutest little cafe I've been to in Virginia. I know I've mentioned this place a couple times on the blog, but only because its just that good.

Both of these pictures were taken while we were waiting in line oohing and aahhing at the pastry bar, listening to the familiar sounds of chatting, turning newspaper pages, and grinding coffee beans. Large windows take over the walls, and the room is filled with heavy wooden tables, chairs and window seats. Even the floor is cool. 

We decided to take advantage of the weather though, and sat outside with our coffee and the sun on our backs for almost two hours. The week had been so busy, so conversation was full of updates and oh, I forgot to tell you's. We were talking a mile a minute about our ideas for the future, and the pros and cons of it all. We all have big plans and I'm thrilled. 

After our coffee grew cold and the sun had lowered in right on our eyes, we decided it was time to move on to our next stop. Forage is one of the most beautiful thrift stores I've ever been to. I literally always find something. Last time it was earrings, this time it was a $4.00 tee that I just couldn't resist. It had purple polkadots and everything. 

Our talk outside of Hyperion had given me a lot to think about as we were perusing old antique shops and bookstores. Back in September, I applied for summer staff position through Passport Camps as a bible study leader. I was still on a spiritual high from chaperoning over the summer, and I knew I wanted to be in that environment again. Everything was fine and dandy until I bombed my interview. It was completely embarrassing, so I quickly forgot about it.

A few months later, my dad was informed that we had to move for his job. I was (secretly) thankful that my interview hadn't gone as planned, and reassured myself that this was the way things were meant to be. I would be able to spend my summer helping my family move to North Carolina. I also dropped a class this semester, and was planning on knocking it out over the summer as well. Between working, class, and helping my family, my summer was suddenly full.

That entire mindset was thrown out the window on Friday afternoon. I had just finished my last class of the week, I had conquered my exam and all of my readings and I was feeling good. I innocently checked my phone while walking out of the classroom to find a email waiting for me in my inbox. I got the job. Wait, what? I stopped in my tracks, grabbed a piece of the closest wall I could find, and tried to get my eyes to focus in again on the tiny letters. Once I realized that I had indeed read it correctly, I shuffled across campus in a weird daze until I got to my room. 

I didn't think it was possible for one person to be full of so many emotions at once. Disbelief. Confusion. Overwhelmed. Selfish. Old. Unprepared. Thrilled. Honored. Excited. Ready. I was bursting at the seams. I would have to give them my answer by Monday, and I had no idea what I was going to do. I immediately called my parents and best friend from home, and Sara and I had a long heart-to-heart. p.s. she quoted cheetah girls

My parents and friends were completely supportive of me taking the position, but I still wasn't truly convinced myself. I was honestly terrified of being gone for an entire summer, missing the chance to spend so many fun events (including my 20th birthday & my brother's high school graduation) with my family, and I was completely positive that I would fail as a bible study leader. 

It took downtown Fredericksburg, a two hour conversation with my friends, prayer, and the support of my family to finally make a decision. Against all odds, against all of the reasons why I shouldn't go, I still feel called to be a bible study leader this summer. As with any new change, I'm terrified. But I'm learning to realize that's okay. I'm so excited for the plans God has for me and for the people I'll meet, and that excitement will outweigh fear any day. 


Hold on to me as we go-
As we roll down this unfamiliar road.
And although this wave is stringing us along,
Just know you're not alone.
Cause I'm going to make this place your home.

Settle down, it'll all be clear.
Don't pay no mind to the demons
They fill you with fear.
The trouble, it might drag you down.
If you get lost you can always be found.

Just know you're not alone.
Cause I'm going to make this place your home.

-Phillip Phillips // Home